Nope...no new photos.
And, yes, I should be unpacking.
Or napping to help get rid of my cold while Emma's
napping to help combat her double ear infection.
But I missed my blog, so I'm taking a minute.
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I've been thinking this week about time. It really does seem to fly. I'm sure you've all heard that. And it's true! I think that, finally, this past week, I've come to the conclusion that
we're are done having kids (at least, as far as OUR plans go). Bob's been on this page for awhile, but it took me a while to get there. However, after five pregnancies (one major surgery and one less f. tube) and two kids, I think it's time. There are those reading this, like Mom and Dad, who will breathe a sigh of relief. And I thought it would make me sad, but it doesn't. Because I have TWO kids...two wonderfulo kids. What makes me sad, is that fact that their childhoods are melting away.
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These past couple of weeks while moving have been hard on Ryan. He was a great help when we were in the process of packing and moving, which meant a little less sleep and less time to squeeze in homework. Now, he'd rather spend his time out exploring or sitting in his favorite spot (more on that on same later date....after boxes!) than doing his homework or cleaning his room. It seems like I've spend the past two weeks either raising my voice at him (yes, I admit it) or asking him to do something for the thirteenth time. And I hate it.
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It's made me think back over the past nine years. NINE years! I can remember so many moments from the time he was just born into the world until now, but it all seems to have gone so quickly. And Emma, our last, is five. And I ask myself, what will they remember from this particular time in their lives? Both kids remember so much from their lives, starting very early on. Will they remember that Mom spent it irritated with them? Or will they remember the story reading, craft creating, quiet moments that we share. And are there enough of those? Those times where their eyes are bright with excitement as he describes the plot in their latest book, or his science experiment in GATE class, or her description of "what if?"
That's what I want them to look back and remember.
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And it all starts with a change in attitude...mine.
5 comments:
A lovely post. It's so nice to "hear" your thoughts.
We heard on Sunday about redeeming the time. It was one of those messages that I'll never forget. We can use the minutes that we would spend doing something useless, instead doing something useful for our souls. It made me think about my drives to work. Where I've started to turn off the radio and just have quiet time thinking spiritually. And how much of a difference that little bit of time makes in my entire day.
I think it's a lovely thought spiritually AND naturally as mothers. Let's grasp that time and use it to it's fullest!
Oh Katie, I hear you there! I've arrived at the same place too...I need to slow down and enjoy this toddler-hood a bit more because it's passing by so quickly! I hope I'll be able to let a few more things go before baby arrives so I can enjoy her baby-ness while it lasts. Who knows if we'll venture beyond 2 kids, so I'd better savor each second!
It's so good to be able to be content with what we have and enjoy it. Thanks for sharing. BTW, I think you do a great job mothering. I also wonder what my kids will remember.
Ditto. Is it maybe the time of year that makes us stop and think like this? It's good, but I'm sure ready for some sunshine and more light!! =)
You are so right about the attitude...but don't be hard on yourself, we aren't perfect and I think it is good for our kids to see our faults and how we deal with them...ie. do we pray, or do we just go on? I remember both good and bad from my folks...but all with fondness. I know they did their best and that is all we can do! Keep up the good work!
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